Wednesday of the Third Week of Advent
As I reflect upon these readings during this time of Advent, I cannot help but consider my spiritual journey. My relationship with God has been tricky at times. As I ponder my most trying moments, my faith, or lack thereof, has been at the center of them. Why is it that at my neediest – when I have hit rock bottom – I question God? Why is it hard for me to accept that God is always by my side, whether I have lost my way or not? I have gotten better at understanding my relationship with God over the years, and the thing that helps keep me grounded in my faith is gratitude.
Having gratitude for the blessings in my life has helped me recognize that God is always with me. I do not just celebrate the big stuff – getting that job I wanted, my grandmother making it successfully through surgery, the finalization of the adoption of my baby girl. That would be too easy. I have gratitude for the little things, too. I am thankful for the first sunny day after many gray and wintry ones. I am thankful when I come home from work and my five-month-old daughter first notices me and giggles gleefully. I am thankful when I am running behind but still need coffee and get to Starbucks to find no one in line. Reflecting on these micro moments of gratitude helps me remember that God is always by my side – during the small things, but also during the raise-the-hair-on-the-back-of-your-neck really difficult things. No matter what, God is there for me, and because of this, my faith should never waver.
Dean, Dougherty Family College